It’s odd.
It’s both fucking abysmal, but also relievingly hopeful.
I finally dragged myself out of the depressive hole i had been in for a ~year an a half but am currently existentially sad and frustrated. lol
…But it will pass. And i can tell that my life has shifted.
Outside of my country being on fire and being a bit worried the small company I work for will survive, my personal life has been pretty good.
I’ve been casually seeing a new woman and it’s been nice to break out of my usual comfort zone of “you are now half of my life” relationships. And it’s given me motivation to get consistent with lifting weights because I want to look good for her (and tbh love when she grabs/holds my arm), which has really helped me control my blood sugar. I might even be able to dial back my medications depending on how my next doctor’s visit goes.
Got sick for a full week the moment I got back from my New Year’s celebration visit to family, then got sick again a week after I got better from the first time. Then my apartment flooded due to a water heater busting in the apartment above me. Still cleaning up from that. Then I had to quit my job due to a toxic work environment and start a new one with a pay cut, and then the day I go to quit, my grandfather dies (wasn’t close to him but the aftermath was rough.)
And now another family member is on death’s door, so I’ll probably have to go to a second funeral this year.
Needless to say, 2025 hasn’t been my year😮💨
Great except I wrecked my car.
Damn sorry to hear that. What happened?
Not much point in telling it really - totally my fault, somehow I made a turn across in front of somebody, didn’t even see them coming. Nobody hurt and the other car just had a busted front corner, but my car was undrivable and the insurance company totalled it. It was a 2014 Nissan Leaf. I loved driving that thing - instantly felt completely at home in it, it felt like a little spaceship.
Im glad you’re safe. Hang in there man. At least you’re brave enough to try driving. Im too anxious to drive.
In my late 20s I had anxiety so bad I constantly walked around feeling like I was about to have a heart attack. Inspired by the movie Fame, I signed up for a community college acting class in the evenings. I forced myself to jump in with both feet on the first night. Getting through that was all it took - it turned out I was actually good at it and it was a blast. I became a total theatre guy - had big parts in a couple plays, designed and built sets, did props, ran lights, became stage manager… And almost immediately I had a thriving social life - going out in groups for food, going to parties, throwing my own… theatre became my life, my job was just something I did during the day. In all this my anxiety COMPLETELY faded away.
Besides all the fun there were other benefits. Learning to get into character transformed job interviews for me - I would just reframe the situation so it wasn’t a job interview - I already worked there, I had just been away for a while and it was my first day back. It was going to be great to see the people again! It was a great group and our manager was awesome, I couldn’t wait! So I would get into that character and walk in genuinely feeling glad to be there instead of being nervous. That’s 90% cultural fit right from the start. My success rate skyrocketed (I was a contractor doing software jobs, so I had to get new jobs quite often).
Theatre led directly to eventually meeting my wife, and gave me the confidence to become a dad. I wouldn’t be the person I am if I hadn’t taken that first step. I HIGHLY recommend it to anyone with anxiety!
Personally it’s about the same, which is good.
But I wake up every morning worried about all the stupid nazi shit that’s going on in the currrent government.
All of this decade has been the worst time of my life, but this year has been very slightly better than last at least. Really need people to start actually hiring again and for the economy to stop being the worst, but no hope there. I’m just begging for the reaper at this point.
artistic depictions of my 2025 so far
Pretty epic wheelie tho
Wow, you’re really starting through and going places this year!
Rally driving is a pretty cool hobby though in your case seems expensive.
It sucks as I’m a black, autistic and bisexual woman, whose rights are slowly taken away by Nazi Germany 2.0 (aka America) and live in a very red state. I wish can flee, but I’m broke and jobless. So I’m forced to stay.
But hey, at least I lost 10 pounds this year!
As a German, don’t bring Germany into this please 😂.
But seriously, sad to see it all. Best wishes.
The state of things is devastating. Actually getting out is the best option, I know easy for someone else to say. Right wingers love to point yo companies moving to red states for lower taxes and no employee protections, when people start leaving the states is when that narrative will change.
Not sure where you are but Colorado has paid family leave and is generally fighting a good fight and may be closest to you, depending on your red state location. Depending on the type of work you donl or want to do, securing employment in advance of relocating or looking at WFH options may be the best option to allow you to get a job and then move and not have to worry about the job location piece. Coastal places with better protections and rights are expensive as hell and probably less of an option for you but depends.
Hope you can get someplace at least measurably better and safer for you.
What kind of job are you looking for?
Quadruple whammy. You rolled a D1
I started to argue that it would be a Nat 1. But then I realized that if a D1 existed, it would only be able to roll Nat 1’s… Which feels apt.
Yeah sorry, I meant a nat 1. Brain not functioning
It’d be absolutely grand if it weren’t for the collapse of democracy. There really are a lot of things coming together for me right now and I’d be so happy if I weren’t worrying about having to flee the country.
Going awesome 😎
Inflation is going down steadily, prices are not increasing as fast as before and more credit is available now, I have an offer for a credit to buy my own home now. Let’s see how that goes
So far it’s been pretty good personally.
I work in stunts, and started training with a new stunt team that does some pretty cool projects. I’m not a member yet, but I keep getting invited to trainings and communicating with people in the team, so it’s been going pretty good. They have a few films announced for the upcoming year, so, hopefully I get to work on a few of them!
2024 was all physical and emotional pain for me. Guess who found out they’re Celiac and lost their broken af unrecoverable soul mate? Meeee! Woo…
So after getting misdiagnosed a bunch and having a completely fucked esophagus I’ve been exclusively focused on healing. The progress on that feels fucking fantastic after 2 years of slowly worsening chronic pain and unresponsive to habit changes, drugs, and diet changes to combat GERD. I just had to find out (on my own, no thanks to my doctors) my immune system was attacking my intestines and stomach/esophagus lining because I ate gluten, duh! Also my esophagus wouldn’t heal until I quit smoking. Oh and I found out I have hemochromatosis from the blood work too, so that’s nice.
I’ve been scared straight and I’m at an ideal body weight as a consequence too. Fasting helped healing immensely by just not using my digestive system for awhile. All around I’ll be fit as a fiddle year end, and in better shape than I’ve ever been since my teenage years. Purely out of fear of dying in agony! Wow!
After this horrible arc, I can work on my social life left in shambles by covid. I went nuts and recovered barely, my lover went nuts slowly and didn’t recover eventually, I lost friends some slowly some rapidly to right wing grifters, and just more mental health crash outs. Bad times. Went from 7 friends, 4 of which I hung out with weekly, to 2.5 I barely see. The busy guys I can maybe see once a month are what’s left and one of them was part of a friend group that’s dead and gone, and isn’t comfortable hanging out 1 on 1. Anxiety thing, but we’re not close as a consequence and that’s a doomed relationship.
My best friend is now my roommate and I consider him family now. He’ll probably also be married soon, but we’re staying together with a +1. Probably for life, so that’s nice. Not nice is why he’s with me but that’s a long story. The short of it is he’s autistic enough to be on disability, and his mom is a narcissist abuser that became too much. You’ll see the two cats he came with posted sometimes. All three of them are rescues :p I needed the company anyways.
So that’s my rest of 2025 goals: Social life. Idk about romance just yet. I’m tired, boss.
That’s it. Hopefully not too long winded. Mobile fat thumb edits.
Thank you for sharing your story. I hope things get much better for you 🙏
So far, meh. Not good or bad for me and mine, but I’m watching my country devolve in double time with damned little I can do about it except prepare for the worst and hope for the best. It’s a bit nerve racking to be honest.
2024 best year ever. Then everything gets undone in 2025
