Edit:Hey, sorry, I think I was going through a mood swing earlier. Or maybe I am now. I need to go see a doctor. Anyway, I’ll leave the post up if anyone has any thoughts. But sorry for being very mean spirited.
I’m so close to just being done. With all of it. I want to turn in my card and just feed myself to the wilds at this point.
I have had to have my faith in socialism tested so much. From the very day I learned the word I felt this pain growing inside me. It gnaws away at me every day and grows and grows with every betrayal. I can’t handle it anymore. I can’t handle another Gorbachev, another Ebert, another second international. Sometimes I wish AES states would just fail to prove once and for all that humanity doesnt deserve socialism. That way it wouldn’t hurt anymore. Call it pessimism, doomerism, whatever you fucking want. I’m just so fucking tired of all of this. I’m so tired of taking one step forward and 5 steps back. I’m so tired of zionist leftist Germans and unimaginably insufferable TERF island brits, of pat socs and eurocommunists, of bleeding hearts and bloody hands. I don’t expect anything to be perfect, but sometimes all I can feel is that history is not a history of class struggle, of class society. But of betrayal. From Thermidor to Weimar, from Arminius to the 20th CPSU congress.
And don’t just tell me to have revolutionary optimism. I know the goddamn quotes, I know the goddamn throughline, I just have so little faith to be opmisitc nowadays.
the part where they replace the state every time.
I’m sure it will be different when you do it of course.
Hearing that from someone who never achieved anything ever is most amusing… There’s a reason the CIA and other agencies tolerate anarchists - they understand they are not a threat
We don’t need it to be different. Socialism is and has always been a success.
and anarchists have been so successful. Name one successful anarchist revolution.
TBF, there have been some very exciting instances of anarchistic societies in the west indies during the golden age of piracy, which sadly got shut down through the British. That being said, yeah metaStatic is on some generational fuck shit saying this, truthfully we should be cooperating with eachover to aid local communities etc