The Ford Foundation specifically is interesting. Long story short - it used to be the reputation laundering front for the car company originally, then it became like the largest non-profit in the world, ended up being a tool for pacifying people during regime change in a bunch of Latin American countries, then even still activists (often religious figures) managed to use it to bring light globally to some of the state terror without putting themselves at risk for directly calling out the state, and afaik by now the foundation has mostly removed itself from that stuff and is effectively a generic huge charity org.

if anyone knows any that cuts through brain fog or make me think clearer, let me know

If you can find a strain that’s a mix of THC/CBD/CBG - that worked really well for me to stay functional.

Until recently this was the state of affairs, now there’s a bunch more court stuff happening:

“People need to understand, ICE officers and Border Patrol don’t need probable cause to walk up to somebody, briefly detain them, and question them”

https://thehill.com/homenews/administration/5396985-trump-homan-immigration-detainments/

Immigration advocates warned that the supreme court has “effectively legalized racial profiling”, granting federal agents the power to stop people in Los Angeles simply for speaking Spanish or appearing Latino

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/sep/09/supreme-court-immigration-los-angeles-reaction

Here’s a good channel 5 video

Gnosticism is about pursuing gnosis; not already possessing it. Achieving gnosis is the goal of the gnostic, just as achieving communism is the goal of the communist.

What a banger line.

Fwiw I really appreciate the way in which you present your thoughts. I’m completely in agreement with your take on religion, as well as your understanding of Marx and his contemporaries regarding this issue, and also your use of terminology.

Cuba got what it deserved because of “everything they’ve done

all these leaders think they can do what they want, they do not help the people

I also hate it when my government provides me with a longer life, complete with free education, healthcare, and housing.

My young aunt then said something about how all leaders are bad

All diseases are bad, but we respond to colds, cancers and plagues differently.

The economy is healthy when nobody uses money

Economics teachers, apparently.

So I can’t agree that he forms a pipeline

Well, here’s his yearly viewer census.

do I want to medicate myself? But that’s going to change me. I don’t want to be changed by pharmaceuticals. I don’t even drink coffee because I don’t like things fucking with the chemistry in my head

I’ve spent a lot of time thinking in the same exact line. Long story short - would you say that a person that’s hard of hearing is betraying their nature by wearing hearing aids? A poor sighted one by wearing glasses? Or a paraplegic, with prosthetics?

ADHD means your brains are probably both lacking and leaking neurotransmitters. Fixing that will make your life more manageable. On the off chance that you’re lucky and meds are effective for you - absolutely give them an honest try.

survived somehow

And that’s the only thing that matters. Anything else can change in the most unpredictable ways, as long as you’re around to experience it c:

I’ve been doing it for four, and most of it has been pretty miserable and hopeless, just not quite enough to go visit the bridge that one last time. There were also some decent times here and there as well. And fairly recently I discovered something that I can see myself spending years on if I ever get back to a materially stable place. So I’ll keep doing the barest of minimums that I can handle until it either somehow works out for the better or kills me. That’s literally the depressed person’s trump card - “if I die - I die, oh well”.

When you’ve been wet and cold for a long time it becomes hard to even imagine that you were ever warm and cozy in the first place. But it only takes one good evening in front of a fire to bring that back. So just keep doing what you can to find your fireplace, even if all you can do is lay down on the floor and cry. Maybe someone will hear it and come by with a portable heater c:

I’m struggling to find a reason to live

You don’t need one. It’s okay to not be okay. Try living life like you’re already dead. What’s the worst that could happen?

Now this is the geopolitical drama I can get behind. Time to plant some trees right in front of the panels!

If you can make the case that washing your hands will extend your quality of life within the short term the person will be persuaded.

Counterpoint - USA and COVID or vaccines in general.

immigrants committing sexual violence, stealing jobs, out breeding the “whites”, coming into the country illegally, given all the money, not working, benefit exploiting, being uncivilised savages etc.

In the US they used this line in support of eventual disenfranchisement and mass murder of Indigenous peoples, Africans, Chinese, Mexicans. By the white labour unions, no less. First the “uncivilized immigrants” are brought into the country (or accepted as the subjects from within), then they work in inhumane conditions to build the cities, infrastructure and industry, and then they are displaced out of workplaces they created by the white European labour force.

In your case - ask your relative how often they see white workers in construction and utility, in the food and farm industry, in (especially lower-end) service jobs. Is this the result of unfair competition of privileged immigrants against the white brits willing to work these jobs, or are they filling the labour underclass that sustains the comfy privileged lives of the white collar labour? Who makes your £10 curry, and who grows the rice for it?

Look up the relevant stats distribution in crime, that’s the easiest thing to disprove right away. As well as crime against the immigrants.

And if you can make them read a book, “Settlers: The Mythology of the White Proletariat” by J. Sakai will not leave any place for this type of bullshit in their head.

It really depends on what’s available around you, and what type of organizing you are looking to do. “International” does sound cool, but a lot of those, especially if you live in the imperial core, would be just maoists third-worldists roleplaying and doing self-flagellation about how the only revolutionaries are in the Global South. If you want to find a community of like-minded progressive people, I’d recommend you look into what’s available locally. Go and try volunteering anywhere - soup kitchens, homeless/animal shelters, mutual aid groups, ecological activists, refugee support orgs, etc. I guarantee that you will find some people who are pretty far on the left, and they could probably link you up with more politically oriented orgs in the area if that’s your specific interest. But going out and doing any meaningful work in your community already beats most of the hammer-and-sickle reading groups.

They’re very cringe at best, and imo quite destructive in siphoning aspiring activists into their swamp, possibly draining them of any momentum. They shit on any and every actual progressive movement or legislation, while chirping about the abstract glorious coming revolution and trying to sell their silly papers. There’s a good reason why they’re shunned away from picket lines and sometimes even protests. It’s a meme in the organizer communities to go through fightback, RCI, or whatever the latest branding iteration, before joining someone that actually does stuff.

obv we can’t copy their tactics and strategies 1:1

As long as you keep this in mind - ARAK, “Activist Study - Araling Aktibista” has what you need.

Try Ashwagandha supplements. You already take a pretty crazy removedtail of meds, and introducing more complex pharmaceuticals is unlikely to give you the balance you’re looking for. Also, anecdotally Vyvanse was definitely contributing to my anxiety big time.

Holy fedposting

https://youtu.be/xuCn8ux2gbs