i think your response is completely justified. as salah said it’s something a lot of girls experience early on, but even i as a cis girl have never really had an outright experience with creeps directly hitting on me. so it’s still very blindsiding when you first realize the extent of that experience and how some girls have simply… grown around it.
it’s something that would obviously cause alarm and negative emotions, whether or not you think the extent to which it threw you off is ‘reasonable’ is something i wouldn’t think too hard about. it’s fair to feel like puking. it’s fair to feel completely off or knocked off balance. your mind is responding to a stimulus and maybe something else is converging that makes you have a much more intense reaction. it’s totally reasonable, it’s rational, it’s empathetic of you. take care of yourself today.
i hope this does not sound patronizing at all, but i’m very adamant about this. don’t ever think about yourself infringing on the space of women as a trans girl. first. you’re a girl. you’re a woman. trans girl makes no difference, in fact it only further proves you’re a girl, who systematically faces equal/more of a brunt by society on average than a cis girl (in no way diminishing how misogyny is for cis girls). girl is a political designation as much as it is an identity. you are of that political designation, you are equally if not more oppressed on a systematic level. trans and cis girls are, by the social organizations and structures of family, patriarchy, exposed and vulnerable to sexual abuse/predation. trans girls are equally if not moreso exposed and vulnerable to misogyny however early (esp for girls that knew they were girls much earlier, but even late bloomers/anyone that feels like they realized late).
now, on the topic of individual experience: i’m a cis girl, and my individual experience with sex and sexual violence and individual people perving or creeping on me has very thankfully been minimal. if as an individual trans girl you have never experienced such things, that still wouldn’t really exempt you from talking about systematic oppression, even though lived experience is valuable for that insight on the worst abuses the systems allow. still even as a girl, if i don’t find myself exposed to the harsh realities that other girls around me are exposed to on a day to day basis, i still qualify to talk about structural misogyny and the like. i just want to make clear that like… youre still a girl, youre oppressed just like the rest of us, i dont know. just dont want u to feel as if there’s this major distinction that makes u less of a girl in any sense.
and as for the idea of the individual ‘creep’, it’s kind of shocking to really think about normalized sexual abuse, but that’s so often because. yeah what it says on the tin, normalized. family entitlement and the child as property, no matter how ‘normal’, all of its benign products often fall under that shit, infringements on the kid constantly and their body. thats another topic but idk its something i been thinking about. for some people they dont actually THINK about it, is what i feel, on the topic of sex abuse, like a mother can just touch a piece of their child’s body without consent and comment on it since they’re entitled, or a man can be overtly aggressive and violate boundaries since they wont face any major consequence. it’s not someone being constantly hounded by unwanted thoughts about touching and being violent to kids, which is why often i feel so sad when people who are really depressed about their intrusive thoughts are really believing that they are evil or going to do something when they’ve already shown more precognition about stopping themselves than others