• lamassu@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
    5·
    16 days ago

    Anhedonia is a new word for me. This is making me wonder if my ADHD+depression is actually ADHD+anhedonia 🤔

    • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
      5·
      16 days ago

      Woah. That might actually be what’s messing me up too. Thanks for posting this link! It does fit remarkably well to my experience

      • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
        4·
        16 days ago

        “Standard ADHD stimulant medications can sometimes blunt emotional experience in people where anhedonia is already prominent, making pre-treatment screening important”

        I somewhat agree with this.

        However, I still think some stimulant is necessary in my case.

        That said, I am lowering my Vyvanse from 60 mg all the way to 40 mg for the time being.

        Also, I think CBT or cognitive behavioral therapy is… useful, in a sense.

        But it is not the be-all-end-all of therapy.

        I think that it mainly works for allistics (specifically, neurodivergent people who are allistic, which means “non-Autistic”).

        Currently, I am looking into other therapy modalities, such as ACT and OT.

        • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
          4·
          16 days ago

          I somewhat agree with this. However, I still think some stimulant is necessary in my case.

          Same tbh. Would get nothing done otherwise.

          That said, I am lowering my Vyvanse from 60 mg all the way to 40 mg for the time being.

          Luckily for me, i can take the lowest dosage of Dexamfetamines (5mg) and 300mg bupropion with no tolerance increase over time on both.

          Also, I think CBT or cognitive behavioral therapy is… useful, in a sense. But it is not the be-all-end-all of therapy.

          I wouldn’t know, really. My therapists have been very lacklustre and it just felt like a venting session and none of them had any clue what my issue could even be. This article has done more for me than years of therapy.

          I think that it mainly works for allistics (specifically, neurodivergent people who are allistic, which means “non-Autistic”).

          I could see that. I am AuDHD so maybe that is what made it hard for them to help me somehow.

          • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
            3·
            16 days ago

            I wouldn’t know, really. My therapists have been very lacklustre and it just felt like a venting session and none of them had any clue what my issue could even be. This article has done more for me than years of therapy.

            S A M E

            But also, in my case, I experienced therapy abuse several times with the therapists I had.

            I have had 11 therapists so far since the year 2021.

            I have switched therapists constantly.

            Even the eighth therapist, who was better than the other therapists before her, abused me at one point, but I stuck with her because I was afraid of the next therapist being worse and maybe this one was as good as I could get, you know?

            I am glad that she eventually terminated the client relationship due to the on-and-off-again no-shows, especially when I last had a job.

            I found therapist later with PhD which is… honestly a godsend in this day and age and she is also an ADHDer.

            However, she had to direct me to another therapist (my current talk therapist) because the practice that my current therapist works for specializes in neurodivergent clients as well as trans clients and also religious trauma too. She felt they might have more resources and had other things to attend to. I was glad she was at least very honest about it.

            I also have a therapist now for ERP.

            I always avoided ERP because I thought I could “tough it out.”

            Now I don’t care whether I can or can’t.

            I need to resolve my OCD pronto.

            Oh, and my eighth therapist that I mentioned told me that I don’t have OCD (even when I was really interested at the time in either doing ERP or finding ways to ameliorate or see if I can reverse it in any way lol).

            She kept doing CBT or cognitive behavioral therapy with me, just like all the other talk therapists that I have had here in Virginia.

            When I would ask her for techniques on how to calm down or regulate my nervous system or some sort of mental technique that I could follow along to soothe my anxious thoughts, she would be like “Just keep questioning or giving a different point-of-view to your thoughts” or “We can get to that next week” or something like that.

            Honestly, I am glad that I do box-breathing now lol

            I was literally just asking for stuff like that, you know?

            She would just give me those blank stares (along with the stuff she would say above).

            But yeah lol I am glad I have my current talk therapist and my ERP there for OCD.

            But now I really don’t expect much from any therapist nowadays.

            If I get a good or great one in Zaragoza, when I get there, that would be awesome but that would probably be more of a lucky incident in my part, nothing more.

            It’s like finding a block in Super Mario Bros. that gives you a mushroom that makes you big or whatever; you’re kinda just lucky to chance upon it, especially when you need it lol

            Oh, and I am also AuDHD.

            • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
              4·
              16 days ago

              Oh wow, i have never been abused by a therapist. Can’t imagine to have that happen and then still have to try to trust other therapists! Your current situations sounds better though, thank fuck for that.

              I “luckily” only ever had incompetent therapists that told me that i should maybe light a candle or straight up never figured out anything that could be wrong in my head or how to help it.

              Maybe my problem is that i am in the netherlands and they truly don’t care about mental health here it seems.

              • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
                2·
                16 days ago

                The United States and Virginia especially has this problem.

                Well

                Hopefully you don’t live in a suburb

                Those contribute to mental health issues big time

                  • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
                    2·
                    16 days ago

                    Lucky!

                    Can’t wait till I get to Zaragoza.

                    Living over 20 years with your narcissistic abusive Dad until the divorce forces him t finally leave is terrible.

                    So done with Virginia and the United States by extension lol

              • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
                4·
                16 days ago

                Nah no worries haha. I hang out around yappers all the time since we all have adhd, but i got the kind that makes me not talk at all except the occasional 10/10 joke that lands perfectly and then it’s time to stfu again.

                I do hope that i eventually find a better therapist because i have a hard time connecting with my friends emotionally and there is actually little motivation to meet them outside of “being social is good for brain”.

                • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
                  3·
                  16 days ago

                  same on the last part

                  I think solitude is good tbh

                  Too much can be bad

                  but i have never felt like I was truly away from people

                  especially from people i don’t like

                  i have my own room though in my house

                  but i am still with people that I don’t like or that make me uneasy

                  and the spectrophobia doesn’t help

                  the spectrophobia doesn’t help at all sometimes lol

                  • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
                    4·
                    16 days ago

                    Spectrophobia sounds like a harsh hand to be dealt ngl.

                    I am doing okay alone. I just do wish that sometimes i had an actual drive to meet people.

                    The issue of also makes it hard to organize because technically i only cognitively care about humans and the world. Emotionally i really don’t get much of the “i care about this” chemicals.

                    but i am still with people that I don’t like or that make me uneasy

                    My roommates are okay, but mutiple mentally disabled people living together is a damn mess. On one hand everyone understands what it’s like having your problems not be respected, on the other hand- do the damn dishes pls😭

    • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
      4·
      16 days ago

      And maybe burnout and possibly over-stimulation, yeah.

      Check if you’re also Autistic because that would explain the sensitivity issues.